Tuesday, September 20, 2011

@ 4:36 PM

I was in the amidst of writing an email to him before going in to the hall
But my dear tab just switched off automatically and refused to turn on
I tried several times before i have finally gave up on it
because the teacher said it's time to go in
I felt scared and slightly nervous before the paper
so i was writing an email to him and telling him how scared i feel
and how i wish i could just turn away and go home instead
I can always do that but it comes with consequence
I am glad my tab didnt work just now such that i didnt manage to press the"send" button
Afterall, how can i tell someone i feel scared before Econs paper
other than geography it was my strongest subject
it was my favourite subject
I am the best in Economics
How can i say i feel scared
How can i say that!

Tomorrow is Wednesday
which is a day i am looking forward to
firstly, it was the last of day prelim2
last day of my last exam in school
I have been looking forward to this day 3 years ago
I will keep the second reason to myself
I hope it would not be a reason for me at all
Even though you are not standing or sitting beside me
I still see you
I still see you everywhere
I even see you in the examination hall even though you wasnt there
I do miss you
But i dont wish to come to a point that I couldnt recall anything when i saw the exam paper
Dear readers
have you ever taken any exams before?
it is just like war
and you are an army by your own
you are alone
you are always alone
fighting a war alone
no one would stand beside you
no one would be there for you
thats how you felt last year
when you enter the hall for your geography H1 A level
and you feel it again today
like the feeling
love the feeling
and you will feel it again in November
perhaps it will be with you forever
because you are already alone
and you are always alone...

I would want to live longer...